Nothing but Now, but Now includes All-

I was listening to a friend relay a ten year span of their life. This went on for about 20 minutes (ha:) or so,..haha and I enjoyed just listening to their voice and watching them recall memories. Back at home I began thinking about the 'experience wave' we all ride. This 'experience wave' is made up of Everything. We divide and subdivide it all as a way to distinguish ourselves. My wave conveniently starts with my 'arrival' and is then further constructed of ongoing experience that gets separated into categories and events. We construct ourselves as individuals from the material of the 'wave experience'. When further considering this 'wave' I realize that it really does include Everything. Before 'I' came along there were conditions taking place that were leading to my arrival, so in one sense, if I am here now, I was 'always' here...always part of the arrival. Same for my parents and everyone,...and....Everything else. After looking and reflecting on this, I just cannot find any beginnings, and so, neither any endings, and without beginnings and endings there remains only the 'Is' or the 'What'. When we come into this world, it can be 'traced'....from a continuous series of 'points' that are seemingly merging from the previous 'point', and.....no matter where you start, there will always be found a 'prior' point. These points are conditions. These conditions are points...no matter what you call them, they each give birth to the next moment, are born of the prior moment, and exist only as relativity. I 'think' of this as the 'darksky' fabric that is woven from the undefinable Mystery. For the sake of keeping records and recalling history, there are beginnings and endings, and a purpose is served. When trying to attach 'blame' or bring about justice, beginnings and endings are required. I remind myself that this is pure construct. How does one ever select the first condition? For instance, what is the first point that begins the series making up a person...the beginning of a war....the initial place that 'any' thing begins? We operate from an unending, and so unbeginning series of constructions. We then take this fluid construction and redefine it based on the arrival of 'moi' :) and trap ourselves into believing in the Separation rather than the Fabric. When placing emphasis on the arrival from womb to exterior atmosphere, we tend to exclude our embryonic lives, and further, the prior conditions that led up to our conception (for everything begins and ends with 'me'). They 'were' and 'are' all equally eventful....and in that sense, there is no one event that is more important, for they are all equally invested, or, equally 'required' for what makes 'that', 'this'. For records and communication sometimes we need the construct, but it is beneficial to remind ourselves that the construction that provides our definition is made up of the infinitely undefinable. Working from this space we are the 'unbound' Ocean that merely manifests itself as 'wave'. And when we see this? What then? Perspective changes and once again we are the Wave.

Thoughts first Dream-

I think 'thought' imagined 'me'.
She furled ever so slightly and catching a glimpse of herself, she dreamed that night she was a 'thing'. Shifting again, she stirred first memory...then memory turned and remembered herself. Circling and circling, shape was captured in its own wake and now spends time chasing her own tail,
forgetting what she was, to become what she's not.
Presently, she dreams again and the circle expands, falling outside of reflection.
Now, beginning to forget what she is,..in order to become what she 'was'--before she ever even became a 'thing',
within that very first Dream.

Echo-

Within this butterfly balance of 'loving kindness',
Take note of the echo that cannot lie.